Happy 28th birthday, my best-est friend! its your last birthday as a single lady and at the end of this month, you will step in another stage of life- to be someone's wife. I'm thinking to write a letter to you but my handwriting is getting worse day by day so yeah, here i am. writing a post in my own blog so that u can read it. i'm pretty sure u will read it because u are one of those few people who have the link to this blog. today is 19th day of January and i start this early because i dont know when will i have the time to write.. i'm planning to write a lengthy post because this is about 13 years of friendship, babe. what do u expect? so prepare yourself to read this. read!! i'll ask u question about this and if u fail to answer correctly, then- good bye my dear friend. muahahaha.
this was one of the earliest picture of us, babe. still remember? while we were in form 1 I guess. [Tudung hitam with baju kurung kuning- like- seriously, syuhada?? hahaha]. I still remember u told me that u knew about me way before we met. although we are friends but we were not that close, didnt we? frankly speaking, I didn't really like you at that point of time. you are quite.. impossible to understand. with that eh-aku-punya-sukalah- attitude, i cant believe u were the person who gave me the most memorable birthday celebration ever with just a simple McD fillet-o fish .. i still remember u told me- akak aku datang td, dia bawak burger ni. hari ni kan birthday kau, mehla share sama2. we were not even in the same dorm. u came all the way to my dorm that night to share that small burger of yours with me. that was so sweet and most sincere act someone ever did to me. From the very bottom of my heart, thank you so much for your kindness, dearie BFF.i remember that till the last day of my life.
we became close in 2002. while we were busy preparing for our big PMR exam, we slowly getting closer together with az. if u ask how- honestly i cant recall. step by step, I have my own circle of friends consist of nine and of course, you are part of it. not to mention, we were also the pair that argued the most.
remember this picture? this was taken when we argued few seconds before. u left out of sudden and i dont bothered to care so we just proceed to take the picture. haha. so childish.i dont know how we reconcile after that but i guess Ina played a big role as our Jaksa Pendamai. muehehehe.
i spent most of my youth with you and them.. it was not an easy journey but we did have fun and I thank God for that. I thank u, for accepting me because I'm far from being perfect. Being moody and unpredictable syuhada whom sometimes so blunt with her words, i'm sure i always giving u hard times. thank u for always being there, accepting me for who i am and never ask me to be who i am because u know i wont bother to play another role when i'm with u. u simply make me want to be me.
that sampul surat is in original form since 11 years ago okeh. dont u dare to accuse me for not taking a good care of your gifts and notes. yup. u did gave me that kind of note but i treasured those, babe. that is how much u meant to me. terharu lettew! haha. babe, did u remember we used to write our so called wasiat and gave to each other so that if one of us die, the one who left will convey those words to our family? hahahahaha. soooo budak2 sgt at that time. i dont know where did i kept those letters, lucky you! if i found it, i'll surely menghanjingkan kau for days. hahahaha. i thank Allah because we born earlier than this internet era. Kalau tak. dunno la what will happen. silap2 masuk KHK.muehehehe
after SPM, things change. the routine change, our circle of friends expand and we met the real world. we rarely met. once a while we talk via phone. we text each other from phone message era till wasap era. it keeps our friendship last longer. we faced another type of problem. if in SMKAP, our problem were basically about homework, friends, my crush, your crush, teachers and family- now, there are additional types of problem we are facing. monetary, life, workplace, staffs, lovelife, family etc.etc. from that I got to know u better and we start to understand and accepting each other more that what we use to do.
As far as i remembered, there were lots of things that i experienced for the first time and u being my partner in crime, were there with me. remember our zaman kesusahan? kejar bas, naik bas, turun bas. [alhamdulillah we now can take turn to drive wherever we want]. i miss those times where we can hang around and berjimba something with someone else money. haha.
our friendship is not just about sweet journey kan babe? i still remember the moment we hugged in front of your house the day your mother passed away. i still remember your tears. I still remember the moment our eyes met when u were beside your late mother and me- sitting few meters away. at that time, i finished reciting yasin for your mum and u simply look at me. i cant forget the look in your eyes as if you want to tell me something and i remember sending a look that telling u- i'm here. I will always here for u, be strong and trust me, u are not alone. for days, i keep worrying about you because u simply pushed others away from u. u refused to reply messages, answering your calls. our friends keep telling me to go to u just to make sure u are ok. i dont know how to drive at that time, so i asked ayah to send me over. when we met, i remember your tired eyes and u look so miserable. only Allah knows how hurt I am when i simply couldnt do anything for u. I couldt understand your pain. I just can sit there, listen to you when u pouring your sadness to me. but i'm still grateful because u still want to tell me what did u feel. thank u for giving me that chance.
second time i saw hurt in your eyes was when he came to your life. I knew u fallen deeply for him and i cant help but supported your love life regardless what actually the reality was. after what happened, u look like lifeless soul. smile didnt reached your eyes and i knew u faked up all the laugh and smile. pray that me and angah wont meet that *&^%*(*^ guy because if we did, he will surely be 6 feet under.
but past is past. now, u finally found your other half. u are getting married in few weeks!!!!! ho-hemm-geeeeeeee. did i told u that i got teary eyed when during your engagement day?[haha. u know me la kan. ratu air mata. wan maimunah sgt!]
why did i cried, u ask? because i remember your late mother. one of ur makcik look exactly like her and i cant help thinking how happy she is if she can be there on your big day. despite your wide smile, i can see some sadness in your eyes. hmmm..
u sounds stress lately babe. just dont think too much, will u? i know [theoretically] that planning a wedding is such a headache but please dont overdo yourself. insyaAllah everything will be okay. anything just tell me, i'll listen to u. if i'm able to help, i will.
dear best-est friend, i sincerely pray for your happiness. i really hope that Fadzil can make u happy, treat you like a princess and pouring you with endless love. but marriage is not just about that. its about give and take. i sincerely pray that you can fulfill your duty as a wife and insyaAllah, a mother. Patience is the key. think with your matured brain, dont let your emotion lead your act. i may not be the right person u can turn to if u having any problem after u get married, but do remember, i will always be here.
things will change and no one can guarantee that our friendship will remain the same. we have talked about this, dont we? we kinda predicted what will happen. just like how angah slowly drifted apart from me after her marriage, i can foresee that u will be busy with your marriage too. sigh. me, as the one who being left have to accept this. its part and parcel of life. we have to move on. but keep my words, anywhere i go, i wont hesitate to claim you as my bestfriend. Dunia akhirat.
i love u. lillahitaala.
Happy birthday, bestfriend and selamat pengantin baru :)
i spent most of my youth with you and them.. it was not an easy journey but we did have fun and I thank God for that. I thank u, for accepting me because I'm far from being perfect. Being moody and unpredictable syuhada whom sometimes so blunt with her words, i'm sure i always giving u hard times. thank u for always being there, accepting me for who i am and never ask me to be who i am because u know i wont bother to play another role when i'm with u. u simply make me want to be me.
that sampul surat is in original form since 11 years ago okeh. dont u dare to accuse me for not taking a good care of your gifts and notes. yup. u did gave me that kind of note but i treasured those, babe. that is how much u meant to me. terharu lettew! haha. babe, did u remember we used to write our so called wasiat and gave to each other so that if one of us die, the one who left will convey those words to our family? hahahahaha. soooo budak2 sgt at that time. i dont know where did i kept those letters, lucky you! if i found it, i'll surely menghanjingkan kau for days. hahahaha. i thank Allah because we born earlier than this internet era. Kalau tak. dunno la what will happen. silap2 masuk KHK.muehehehe
after SPM, things change. the routine change, our circle of friends expand and we met the real world. we rarely met. once a while we talk via phone. we text each other from phone message era till wasap era. it keeps our friendship last longer. we faced another type of problem. if in SMKAP, our problem were basically about homework, friends, my crush, your crush, teachers and family- now, there are additional types of problem we are facing. monetary, life, workplace, staffs, lovelife, family etc.etc. from that I got to know u better and we start to understand and accepting each other more that what we use to do.
second time i saw hurt in your eyes was when he came to your life. I knew u fallen deeply for him and i cant help but supported your love life regardless what actually the reality was. after what happened, u look like lifeless soul. smile didnt reached your eyes and i knew u faked up all the laugh and smile. pray that me and angah wont meet that *&^%*(*^ guy because if we did, he will surely be 6 feet under.
but past is past. now, u finally found your other half. u are getting married in few weeks!!!!! ho-hemm-geeeeeeee. did i told u that i got teary eyed when during your engagement day?[haha. u know me la kan. ratu air mata. wan maimunah sgt!]
why did i cried, u ask? because i remember your late mother. one of ur makcik look exactly like her and i cant help thinking how happy she is if she can be there on your big day. despite your wide smile, i can see some sadness in your eyes. hmmm..
u sounds stress lately babe. just dont think too much, will u? i know [theoretically] that planning a wedding is such a headache but please dont overdo yourself. insyaAllah everything will be okay. anything just tell me, i'll listen to u. if i'm able to help, i will.
dear best-est friend, i sincerely pray for your happiness. i really hope that Fadzil can make u happy, treat you like a princess and pouring you with endless love. but marriage is not just about that. its about give and take. i sincerely pray that you can fulfill your duty as a wife and insyaAllah, a mother. Patience is the key. think with your matured brain, dont let your emotion lead your act. i may not be the right person u can turn to if u having any problem after u get married, but do remember, i will always be here.
things will change and no one can guarantee that our friendship will remain the same. we have talked about this, dont we? we kinda predicted what will happen. just like how angah slowly drifted apart from me after her marriage, i can foresee that u will be busy with your marriage too. sigh. me, as the one who being left have to accept this. its part and parcel of life. we have to move on. but keep my words, anywhere i go, i wont hesitate to claim you as my bestfriend. Dunia akhirat.
i love u. lillahitaala.
Happy birthday, bestfriend and selamat pengantin baru :)
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