chenta.

I'm getting emotional again so just ignore this post. I'm currently writhing with my heart and slightly guided by my brain- please forgive my words. Baru je lps tgk satu bual bicara kt Korean television. Their guest is a comedian. A famous comedian indeed. they talk about his life, his successful career and of course, the obstacles & hurtful event in his journey. No one live in perfect life without problems i tell u- in case u feel u are d only one who suffer.

Imagine ek. Dia ada good and happy life before. Dia kerja kuat to success in his career as comedian. Dia berjaya and dia berkahwin and dianugerahkan dua anak lelaki. Tapi langit tak selalu cerah, masa wife dia mengandung 2nd baby, doctor ckp buah pinggang wife dia dah rosak. Kena operate asap. kalo operate mestilah akan effect baby dlm perut kan. as a mother, of course- nyawa anak mmg dpt priority so operation tangguh lima hari.

Baby lahir pramatang. tp yg wife dia ni tak blh nk operate lg sbb donor tak de. line panjang tunggu donor so wife dia kena dialisis hari2 la. mcm jatuh ditimpa tangga, brain baby dia ada problem yg mengakibatkan bahagian kanan baby tu tak blh guna especially tgn kanan and kaki kanan. as a husband and a father- imagine mcm mana hancurnya hati comedian tu.

mind u again- keje dia is a comedian k. so he have to smile and make people laugh in order to make money. kalau korg ada kt tempat dia, mampu nak hadapi sume tu? nak gelak2 even family tgh kelam kabut. aku tak mampu. sungguh.

Dia berkerja siang mlm. then g hospital hari2 to spend tym with the wife. mana dgn anak lagi. sampai satu tahap rambut dia gugur and doctor kata tu disebabkan stress yg keterlaluan. then wife dia moody tau lps sakit tu. slalu marah sbb sakit & of course tension yang amat. Lagilah sasau lelaki tu. hebat ujian Tuhan utk ko, bang.

pastu dlm talkshow tu, wife dia bg surat since wife dia tak mampu dtg. its a secret letter. tym tu aku mmg tak blh control la air mata. even MC pun tak dpt nk baca surat tu. MC sume lelaki tau so secara tak lansung, aku tahu lelaki pun lembut hati gak [kwn lelaki aku blh dibilang ye. tu pun tak de yg rapat. even sume adik2 aku lelaki tp i dont really understand man as a whole]

aku tak pernah bercinta. i mean love and be loved. so cerita lelaki tu mcm eye opener. to find someone yang sanggup stay dgn kita susah & senang- mana nk dpt weh? to love u no matter what. to be with u through thick and thin.

marriage nampak indah. u will be ur other half 24/7. bangun pagi2 nmpk dia sampai la nk tdo mlm kemudiannya. masa bahagia, tym sume tgh cantik- everything seems perfect but kalau perkara2 mcm ni jd dkt any marriage- brape ramai yg blh tahan? sape je yang sanggup? especially kalau kahwin sbb cinta yg bukan lillahitaala.

sbb kwin?- sbb dia cntik

sbb kwin?- sbb dia pndai msak

sbb khwin?- sbb dia baik

sbb khwin?- sbb dia romantik

cantik, pndai msk, romantik, ensem or even baik pun blh berubah bila2 masa. people can change anytime. so- am i prepared for this? truthfully- no. maybe sbb i havent met a right guy- my other half yet. love do have some power. u can turn something impossible to possible.

who knows?

kucing adalah satu ciptaan Allah yang mampu menghilangkan stress. tak caye? tgk ni

alololo.